Boredom/Rage + Music
Stimmung: Pissed off
well, hi
i don't know how to start.. i just hav to say that this saturday sucks. it rains all day, nothing to do, and probably the most important thing:
Charly*, a boy who has fancied me for ages tells me that he met a nice girl at a party yesterday. i mean, he's a good friend of mine, but i thought that he wanted more than just friendship. and know i've to listen to his fuckin' stories about that sweet girl who can sing and dance like a popstar (she took part in a castingshow and she was thrown out in one of the last shows). Great!
Actually i don't want anything from him, but it pisses me off that he is having fun while i was sitting at home, diseased, alone.
maybe you think i'm a little bit overreacting. but you've to know that he's complimenting me since 2 months. and cause another boy jilted me after 4 months flirting (very disappointing) i began writing with Charly. he's funny, smart, but i think, for him, it's more than just flirting... and the more i wrote, the more i like him. and in the meantime i misses a boyfriend by my side... so Charly became more attractive (although he's neither the best looking one nor the ugliest).
exactly in a month i'll become 16, so i'm allowed to hit the disco. and when i'll see him, and maybe we are even dancing, i cannot guarantee anything!
Well, music for today:
The Ting Tings - That's not my name
But what's her name??? i'll look it up
ciao see ya later ;)
