Because of you

18.07.2005 um 00:47 Uhr

nicht hier

Stimmung: sehr mies und "auah" inside
Musik: silence _ delirium und sahra


Why don't you return my calls
Why you trip 'bout where I be
You don't ever come to see me
You say that you're too busy

What the hell, I don't have time
Why you messin' with my mind
I can find another guy
Someone who will treat me right

I don't need this bullshit
I won't put up with it, any longer
You can, go if you want
I don't need you pity
I will be just fine
If you decide that you want to leave
Close the door behind you
I just want to know what

What about all of the
Things that you say
What about all of the
Promises that you made
What about all of the
Eyes that you gave
What about all of the
Things you told me
What about all of the
Things that you say
What about all of the
Promises that you made
What about all of the
Eyes that you gave
What about, what about
What about us, what about us
What about us, what about us

Thought you said you were different
Was that what I heard you say
Said that you loved only me
Thought that you'd be all I need
What happened to promises
Said that you were a better man
Your words have no weight with me
'Cos you're counterfeit I see

I don't need this bullshit
I won't put up with it, any longer
You can, go if you want
I don't need you pity
I will be just fine
If you decide that you want to leave
Close the door behind you
I just want to know what

What about ...

Baby check it out hear this
Now what if I said that you
Wasn't fit to be with
Now what if I told you the game
We played, I picked it
Now what if I said I wasn't true
So do you
You and I know without me
There's no you

Now what about the bills that were past due
Paid for you, and all you said to me is Baby I owe you
Forget about the brand new life
That I gave you
Don't what about us to me
'Cos we are through

What about ...


(Brandy - What About Us)

ist wie aus meinem leben gegriffen. es beschreibt genau was ich gefühlt hab und was zwischen mir und dir abgelaufen ist.
aber das mit dem gehen wenn du willst und mit der türe schließen ist doch etwas schwieriger für mich.
auch wenn du oft nicht da warst wenn du bei mir gewesen bist, hab ich mich doch immer riesig gefreut wenn du vor meiner tür gestanden bist.


17.07.2005 um 12:49 Uhr

You make me sick

Diese Stille...

es ist so eigenartig das du nicht mehr da bist
Normalerweise hab ich immer gehofft das du dich doch noch meldest, aber meistens war das umsonst...

jetzt weiß ich...
ich muss nichts mehr erwarten, wenn ich morgens aufwache und auf das display schiele...

trotz  all der scheiße die du mir angetan hast:

ich hab dich lieb und
ich vermisse dich

und nichts passt mehr