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That evening I didn't watch the sunset from Little
PinkI left my crutch leaning against the corner
of the house, limped down the beach, and walked
into the water until I was up to my kneesThe
water was cold, the way it gets a couple of months
after hurricane season has blown itself out, but I
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hardly noticedNow the track beating across the
water was bitter orange, and that was what I was
looking at
"Experiment, my ass," I said, and the water surged
around meI rocked unsteadily on my feet, holding
my arm out for balance
Overhead a heron glided across the darkening sky,
a silent long-neck projectile
"Snooping is what it was, snooping is all it was,
and I paid the priceIf I sort of felt like strangling her all
over again, it was nobody's fault but my ownPeek
not through a keyhole, lest ye be vexed, my dear
old mother used to sayI peeked, I was vexed, end
of storyIt was her life now, and what she did in
it was her businessMy business was to drop it
My question was whether or not I couldIt was
harder than snapping your fingers; even than
snapping the fingers of a hand that wasn't there
A wave surged in, one big enough to knock me down
For a moment I was under, and breathing waterI
came up splutteringThe backrun tried to pull me
out with the sand and shellsI pushed shoreward
with my good foot, even kicking feebly with my bad
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one, and managed to get some purchaseI might be
confused about some things, but I didn't want to
drown in the Gulf of MexicoI wasn't confused
about thatI crawled out of the water with my
hair hanging in my eyes, spitting and coughing,
dragging my right leg behind me like so much
soaked luggage
When I finally got to dry sand, I rolled over and
stared up into the
