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@@@@@ Wyman felt a trace of fear as he thought of admitting that to Croft"No, I don't think soI heard Goldstein yell, and then the gun started to come down on meIt was rolling back so I got out of the way Already he was uncertain exactly how it had occurred, and a part of his mind was trying to convince him that he spoke the truthWith it, however, he felt a surprising flush of shame"I guess it was my fault," he blurted out honestly, but his voice was so tired that it lacked sincerity, and Croft thought he was trying to protect GoldsteinA spasm of rage worked through him, and he turned on Goldstein and said, "Listen, Izzy "My name isn't Izzy," Goldstein said angrily "I don't give a damn what it isThe next time you pull a goddam trick like that, I'm going to put you in for a court-martial "But I don't think I let go," Goldstein protested weaklyBy now, he too was no longer sureThe sequence of his sensations when the gun had begun to pull out of his hands was too confused for him to feel righteousHe had thought that Wyman stopped pushing first, but when Wyman declared he was to blame, Goldstein had a moment of panicLike Croft, he believed Wyman was protecting him"I don't know," he said"I don't think I did "You don't think," Croft cut him off"Listen, for as long as you've been in the platoon, Goldstein, you've done nothing but have ideas about how we could do something betterBut when it comes down to a little goddam work, you're always dicking offI've had enough of that bullshit from you Once again Goldstein was feeling a helpless angerA reaction he could not control, his agitation was even greater than his resentment and choked him so that he could not speakA few tears of frustration welled in his eyes, and he turned away and lay down agai