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@@@@@ I took another breath and spoke through the tears that were falling now?And what if things change? What if you put me in some-one else, steal another life, and it goes wrong? What if that body pulls me after some other love, back to the souls? What if you can't trust me anymore? What if I betray you next time? I don't want to hurt you!? The first part was the pure and unadorned truth, but I was lying wildly through the secondI hoped they wouldn't hear thatIt would help that the words were barely coherent, my tears turned to sobsI would never hurt themWhat had happened to me here was permanent, a part of the very atoms that made up my small bodyBut maybe, if I gave them a reason to fear me, they would more easily accept what had to be And my lies worked, for onceI caught the worried glance Jared and Jeb exchangedThey hadn't thought of that?of my becoming untrustworthy, becoming a dangerIan was already moving to put his arms around meHe dried my tears against his chestYou don't have to be anyone elseNothing's going to change ?Hold on, Wanda,? Jeb said, his shrewd eyes suddenly sharper?How does going to one of those other planets help you? You'll still be a parasite, kid Ian flinched around me at the harsh word And I flinched also, because Jeb was too insightful, as always They waited for my answer, all but Doc, who knew what the real answer wasThe one I wouldn't give I tried to say only true things?It's different on other planets, JebThere isn't any resistance And the hosts themselves are differentThey aren't as individualized as humans, their emotions are so much mild