Verfall im finalen Stadium

"One last thing before I shuffle off the planet
I will be the one to make you crawl
so I came down to wish you an unhappy birthday
someone call the ambulance there’s gonna be an accident

I’m coming up on infra-red,
there is no running that can hide you
cause I can see in the dark

I’m coming up on infra-red,
forget your running, I will find you

One more thing before we start the final face off
I will be the one to watch you fall
so I came down to crash and burn your beggars banquet
someone call the ambulance there’s gonna be an accident

I’m coming up on infra-red,
there is no running that can hide you
cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red,
forget your running, I will find you
(I will find you!)

someone call the ambulance there’s gonna be an accident
I’m coming up on infra-red,
there is no running that can hide you
cause I can see in the dark

I’m coming up on infra-red,
forget your running, I will find you
cause I can see in the dark

I’m coming up on infra-red,
there is no running that can hide you
cause I can see in the dark

I’m coming up on infra-red,
forget your running,
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you"

(Placebo "Infra-Red")

"Ich bin allein, du bist nicht hier
Ich bin allein und die Zeit steht still
Warum bist du nicht bei mir?
Du weißt, daß ich nichts anderes will
Ich sitze hier und du rufst nicht an
Du bist weit weg und suchst dein Glück
Obwohl du mich nicht hören kannst, sag ich dir:

Bitte, komm zurück, komm zurück
Bitte, komm zurück, komm zurück

Du kannst nicht wissen, wie das ist
Vielleicht wirst du es nie verstehn
Ich will nur, daß du bei mir bist
Ich will dich endlich wieder sehn
Ich sitze hier, ich bin allein
Und langsam werde ich verrückt
Ich kann nicht mehr alleine sein, oh bitte

Bitte, komm zurück, komm zurück...
ich bin allein, was soll ich hier, bitte komm zurück zu mir
ich liege wach bis nachts um vier, bitte komm zurück, zurück zu mir"

(Die Ärzte "Komm zurück")

"... he was overcome by the sensation that Life was an enormous rucksack so impossibly heavy that, even though it meant losing everything, it was infinitely easier to leave all baggage here on the roadside and walk on into the blackness. (...) This stuff's all dead weight. Just lay down the rucksack (...) and join the happy campers in the sky."

"But dying's no easy trick. And suicide can't be put on a list of Things to Do in between cleaning the grill pan and levelling the sofa leg with a brick. It is the decision not do do, to un-do; a kiss blown at oblivion. Not matter what anyone says, suicide takes guts. It's for heroes and martyrs, truly vainglorious men."

(Zadie Smith in "White Teeth")

"Painfully I at last conclude that this life means nothing and is only a painful withdrawal."

(Arshile Gorky)

„I tend to equate sadness with intelligence.“

“...he admits the one thing I’ve always known about him – that he is utterly and hopelessly depressed. ‘I want my life to be different,’ he tells me, and his voice sounds as lonely as Morrissey’s on Bona Drag. ‘I want adventure. I want something to look forward to.’”

„She knows I will never give up.
She could hate me and I would love her anyway.
So – clearly – this is not a healthy interaction. But it gets worse.“

„I don’t know what qualifications are necessary to live in any certain place at any given time, but I know I don’t have them.“

(Chuck Klosterman in "Killing Yourself to Live. 85% of a True Story")

Stimmung: confident (not really)
Musik: Kylie "Confide in Me", or not?

"If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me."
(Ralph Waldo Emerson)

„... knew that it wasn’t (...) physical presence he pined for, he understood that what he missed was companionship, someone he could talk to.“

„... knew he’d never have the guts to commit suicide. It was to violent. But given a choice, say by God, between Life and Nothing, a simple case of pressing a button ON/OFF, (...) knew which he’d go for.“ 

(Will Rhode in „White Ghosts“)

"You can't wish for luck once it's run out. That's the whole point. You have to refill along the way. Everyone knows that."

(Will Rhode in "White Ghosts")

'"Do you mind if I ask your opinion, then, of someone who actually does try to kill himself?“
”He needs help quickly,” I say it without a pause.’

(Craig Clevenger in “The Contortionist’s Handbook")