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888
Hoping he was right, I opened LINE 1 again and
punched in the area code for Rhode Island and then
759-082My finger never hesitatedIt punched the
last number, and somewhere in Providence, a phone
began to ringzit?"
For a moment I was sure I'd blown the number after
allThe voice was female, but sounded older than
my daughterBut I resisted
my initial impulse to say "Wrong number" and hang
upShe sounded tired, Pam had said, but if this
was Ilse, she sounded more than tired; she sounded
weary unto death
"Ilse?"
No answer for a long timeI began to think the
disembodied someone in Providence had hung upI
realized I was sweating, and heavily enough so I
could smell myself, like a monkey on a branch
Then the same little refrain:
"Hel-lo?zit?"
"Ilse!"
889
NothingI sensed her getting ready to hang up
Outside the wind was roaring and the surf was
pounding
"Miss Cookie!" I shouted"Miss Cookie, don't you
dare hang up this phone!"
That got throughdee?" There was a world
of wonder in that broken word
"If you're really DaddyI could
see her in her own kitchen, barefoot (as she had
been that day in Little Pink, looking at the
picture of the doll and the floating tennis balls),
head down, hair hanging around her face
Distracted, maybe almost to the point of madness
And for the first time I began to hate Perse as
well as fear herI want you to listen to
me-"
"Tell me my screen name There was a certain
shocked cunning in the voice now"If you're
really my Daddy, tell me my screen name
And if I didn't, I realized, she'd hang
