meiqingqionga

@@@@@No one is waiting for me here The cool air feels like heaven The kitchen is to my leftI can see the gleam of granite counters I pull the canvas bag from my shoulder and start with the refrigeratorThere is a moment of anxiety as the light comes on when the door opens, but I find the button and hold it down with my toeI don't have time to let them adjust Milk, cheese slices, leftovers in a plastic bowlI hope it's the chicken-and-rice thing I watched him cooking for dinnerWe'll eat this tonight Juice, a bag of applesThese will stay good till morning I hurry to the pantryI need things that will keep longer I can see better as I gather as much as I can carryMmm, chocolate chip cookiesI'm dying to open the bag right now, but I grit my teeth and ignore the twist of my empty stomach The bag gets heavy too quicklyThis will last us only a week, even if we're careful with itAnd I don't feel like being careful; I feel like gorgingI shove granola bars into my pocketsI hurry to the sink and refill my canteenThen I put my head under the flow and gulp straight from the streamThe water makes odd noises when it hits my hollow stomach I start to feel panicked now that my job is d