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@@@@@I knew I could bring her around "Sometimes it's hard," Red said"You don't know what you would have been running into Wyman shook his head"Red, listen, this sounds stupid, but Claire really made me feel like I could be somethingAfter a date I'd leave her, and walk around for a while by myself, and I don't know, I just knew I was gonna be a big guy someday He stopped for a moment, absorbed in what he had said Red wondered what to answer"You know a lot of people feel that way, kid "Aw, it was different with us, RedIt was really something special"I don't know," he muttered"Lots of people feel like that, and then for some reason they bust up, or they go sour on each other "We wouldn't have busted up, RedI'm telling ya, she loved me He thought about this, and his face became tenseHe wrapped his blanket around him and then said, "She couldn't have been lying, Red, she's not that kind of girl He was silent, and then blurted out suddenly, "You don't think she coulda been lying to me, do ya?" "Naw, she wasn't," Red said"Naw, she didn't lie, but people change, you know "Not her," Wyman said"It was different with us His voice expressed the frustration he felt at being unable to put his feeling into words Red thought of the mother Wyman would have to support if he married his girl, and he had a quick elliptic knowledge of everything that would contain- -- the arguments, the worries over money, the grinding extinction of their youth until they would look like the people who walked by them in the park -- it was all clear to RedIt would not be this girl for Wyman but it would be some other, and it did not matter because both girls would look the same in thirty years and Wyman would never amount to very muchHe saw a future vista of Wyman's life, and rebelled