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@@@@@I never wondered what they wantedI didn't take them just the way they were Oh, I'm never going to do that to Cat I'm never going to make her different from what she isI'm always going to love her like I do now-with my whole heart, no matter what Mother never loved me like I love CatOr Suellen or Carreen, either She wanted me to be different from me, she wanted me to be just like herAll of us, that's what she wanted from all three 'of usScarlett recoiled from what was in her headShe'd always believed her mother was perfectIt was unthinkable that Ellen O 'Hara could ever be wrong about anything But the thought would not go awayIt returned again and again when she was unprepared to shut it outIt returned in different guises, with different embellishmentsIt would not leave her aloneBeing a lady like her isn't the only way to beIt isn't even always the best way to beNot if it doesn't make you happy Happy is the best way to be because then you can let other people be happy, tooShe was kind and patient and caringfor us children, for Pa, for the darkiesI wish you could have felt the way I feel now, I wish you could have been happyWhat was it Grandfather had said? That his daughter Ellen had married Gerald O 'Hara to run away from a disappointment in loveWas that why she was never happy? Was she pining over someone she couldn't have the way I pined over Ashley? The way I pine now over Rhett when I can't help it What a waste! What a horrible, senseless wa