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it a gross violation of duty and respectYou are not to be judged by
the same ruleYou do not owe me the duty of a childBut, Fanny, if
your heart can acquit you of ingratitude??
He ceasedFanny was by this time crying so bitterly that, angry as
he was, he would not press that article fartherHer heart was almost
broke by such a picture of what she appeared to him; by such accusations,
so heavy, so multiplied, so rising in dreadful gradation! Selfwilled,
obstinate, selfish, and ungratefulHe thought her all this
She had deceived his expectations; she had lost his good opinion
What was to become of her?
?I am very sorry,? said she inarticulately, through her tears, ?I am
very sorry indeed
?Sorry! yes, I hope you are sorry; and you will probably have reason
to be long sorry for this day?s transactions
?If it were possible for me to do otherwise? said she, with another
strong effort; ?but I am so perfectly convinced that I could never
make him happy, and that I should be miserable myself
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Another burst of tears; but in spite of that burst, and in spite of
that great black word miserable, which served to introduce it, Sir
Thomas began to think a little relenting, a little change of inclination,
might have something to do with it; and to augur favourably
from the personal entreaty of the young man himselfHe knew her
to be very timid, and exceedingly nervous; and thought it not improbable
that her mind might be in such a state as a little time, a
little pressing, a little patience, and a little impatience, a judicious
mixture of all on the lover?s side, might work their usual effect onIf
the gentleman would but persevere, if he had but love enough to
persevere, Sir Thomas began to have hopes; and these reflections
having passed across his mind and cheered it, ?Well,? said he, in a
tone of becoming gravity, but of less anger, ?well, child, dry up your
tearsThere is no use in these tears; they can do no goodYou must
now come downstairs with meCrawford has been kept waiting
too long alreadyYou must give him your own answer: we cannot
expect him to be satisfied with less; and you only can explain to
him the grounds of that misconception of your sentiments, which,
unfortunately for himself, he certainly has imbibedI am totally
unequal to it
But Fanny shewed such reluctance, such misery, at the idea of
going down to him, that Sir Thomas, after a little consideration,
judged it better to indulge herHis hopes from both gentleman and
lady suffered a small depression in consequence; but when he looked
at his niece, and saw the state of feature and complexion which her
crying had brought her into, he thought there might be as much
lost as gained by an immediate interviewWith a few words, therefore,
of no particular meaning, he walked off by himself, leaving his
poor niece to sit and cry over what had passed, with very wretched
feelings
Her mind was all disorderThe past, present, future, everything
was terribleBut her uncle?s anger gave her the severest pain of all
Selfish and ungrateful! to have appeared so to him! She was miserable
for eve
