bisschen story gekritzel..nichts aufregendes..leider konnt ichs nicht auf deutsch formulieren, bitte fragt mich nicht wieso. ich weiß auch nicht wieso ich grad sowas geschrieben hab, aber ich hab mich einfach so gefühlt. über englische grammatik oder rechtschreibefehler bitte ich höflichst hinweg zu sehen *g*
"Say something...anything!" He kept starring quietly at her. "Can’t you at least scream at me and say that you hate me?" "No, that would mean I care!", said Chris and left the room. "Fuck you, Chris!", said Sarah angry and sighed. It wasn’t easy lately, she made a big mistake, she regretted it deeply. But the way Chris behaved was too much. Sarah was in the bedroom, throwing her clothes into her bag. Tears were rolling down her face. She tried to wipe them away, but there were too many of them. Chris entered the room, leaning in the doorway, watching her. "What are you doing?"
"Packing.", answered Sarah, not looking up.
"Why?"
"I’m leaving. My plane goes tomorrow morning. I’m gonna stay at a hotel tonight. You don’t have to worry, everything’s been taken care of."
"That’s it? You’re just leaving, like nothing happened?", he sounded cold.
"What the hell do you want me to do?", Sarah turned around and look at him.
"I just can’t believe you don’t even TRY to fix things."
"Are you serious? I tried to make things better. There is nothing else I can do, you don’t let me!"
"Oh but leaving helps?", Chris said sarcastically.
"Goddamn it, Chris!! Can you honestly say that things will be the same as they were before, even if I tried!? Can you promise that you’ll be able to look at me again without thinking about what I have done. Can you honestly do that? – Because I can’t!!", tears started flowing again over her cheek.
"But that’s no reason for you to leave, Sarah. We need to talk about it...I need to talk about it!", his voice softened a little.
"No...you need me to apologize for it, over and over again. How many times do you want me to say that I’m fucking sorry?? I’m sick of this!"
"Don’t you dare!! You are the one that cheated, not me. You betrayed me with my own brother, in my bed! You owe me, Sarah!", Chris‘ voice got very cold and for a second, anger, mixed with pain, flashed in his eyes.
"That’s the point, Chris. Each time that I’m going to make a mistake in the future, you’re gonna say ‚You owe me Sarah. Remember what you did back then‘. We never owed each other anything before."
"Oh well, but you haven’t slept with my brother before. That’s a big difference."
"I can’t sleep beside you, feeling how much I’ve hurt you with what I have done. It makes me sick to be here with you. You are treating me like I’m not here. You don’t talk to me, you don’t even look at me anymore. I can’t stand it. You’re cold as ice, you haven’t even given me a slightest chance to make it up to you. I really can’t be here no longer."
"I am the one who should tell you to leave. This is my appartment, my life and you hurted me. It shouldn’t be you ending this – you weren’t the one who got hurt.", he started screaming at her.
"I know I’ve made a mistake. I know that it was wrong, I know that it hurted your feelings. If i could turn back time, I would undo what happened – but that’s impossible- I can’t!! I’m terrible sorry and I feel bad for what I did to you. I told you before."
"Why did you do it in the first place? What made you do this? I can’t understand.", he gazed desperatley at her. "I thought you loved me..that you cared about me."
"I do love you and you know that I care about you so much. I don’t know why it happened, Chris.", she made towards him and carefully touched his arm. Chris took a step back and shook his head "I don’t know if I can ever trust you again.", he answered quietly.
"I know..and there is no way to work things out, as long as you are not able to forgive me...it takes time, that’s why I’m leaving. It’s not because I’m trying to avoid you or the situation, it’s because I want you to think about it and hopefully give me a second chance, because I really need you.", Sarah headed for the bed, took her bag and left without looking at Chris again.