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I do not want to add to anything you may now be feeling, by an account of what he has feltSuffice it, that he has behaved in the most gentlemanlike and generous manner, and has confirmed me in a most favourable opinion of his understanding, heart, and temperUpon my representation of what you were suffering, he immediately, and with the greatest delicacy, ceased to urge to see you for the present Here Fanny, who had looked up, looked down again?Of course,? continued her uncle, ?it cannot be supposed but that he should request to speak with you alone, be it only for five minutes; a request too natural, a claim too just to be deniedBut there is no time fixed; perhaps to-morrow, or whenever your spirits are composed enoughFor the present you have only to tranquillise yourselfCheck these tears; they do but exhaust youIf, as I am willing to suppose, you wish to shew me any observance, you will not give way to these emotions, but endeavour to reason yourself into a stronger frame of mindI advise you to go out: the air will do you good; go out for an hour on the gravel; you will have the shrubbery to yourself, and will be the better for air and exerciseAnd, Fanny? (turning back again for a moment), ?I shall make no mention below of what has passed; I shall not even tell your aunt BertramThere is no occasion for spreading the disappointment; say nothing about it yourself This was an order to be most joyfully obeyed; this was an act of kindness which louis vuitton jewelry Fanny felt at her heartTo be spared from her aunt Norris?s interminable reproaches! he left her in a glow of gratitude Anything might be bearable rather than such reproachesCrawford would be less overpowering She walked out directly, as her uncle recommended, and followed 279 Jane Austen his advice throughout, as far as she could; did check her tears; did earnestly try to compose her spirits and strengthen her mindShe wished to prove to him that she did desire his comfort, and sought to regain his favour; and he had given her another strong motive for exertion, in keeping the whole affair from the knowledge of her auntsNot to excite suspicion by her look or manner was now an object worth attaining; and she felt equal to almost anything that might save her from her aunt Norris She was struck, quite struck, when, on returning from her walk and going into the East room again, the first thing which caught her eye was a fire lighted and burningA fire! it seemed too much; just at that time to be giving her such an indulgence was exciting even painful gratitudeShe wondered that Sir Thomas could have leisure to think of such a trifle again; but she soon found, from the voluntary information of the housemaid, who came in to attend it, that so it was to be every daySir Thomas had given orders for it ?I must be a brute, indeed, if I can be really ungrateful!? said she, in soliloquy?Heaven defend me from being ungrateful!? She saw nothing more of her balenciaga bag uncle, nor of her aunt Norris, till they met at dinnerHer uncle?s behaviour to her was then as nearly as possible what it had been before; she was sure he did not mean there should be any change, and that it was only her own conscience that could fancy any; but her aunt was soon quarrelling with her; and when she found how much and how unpleasantly her having only walked out without her aunt?s knowledge could be dwelt on, she felt all the reason she had to bless the kindness which saved her from the same spirit of reproach, exerted on a more momentous subject ?If I had known you were going out, I should have got you just to go as far as my house with some orders for Nanny,? said she, ?which I have since, to my very great inconvenience, been obliged to go and carry myselfI could very ill spare the time, and you might have saved me the trouble, if you would only have been so good as to let us know you were going outIt would have made no difference to you, I suppose, whether you had walked in the shrubbery or gone to my house ?I recommended the shrubbery to Fanny as the driest place,? said Sir Thomas 280 Mansfield Park ?Oh!? said MrsNorris, with a moment?s check, ?that was very kind of you, Sir Thomas; but you do not know how dry the path is to my houseFanny would have had quite as good a walk there, I assure you, with the advantage of being of some use, and obliging her aunt: it is all her faultIf she would but have let us know she was going out borse fendi but there is a something about Fanny, I have often observed it before?she likes to go her own way to work; she does not like to be dictated to; she takes her own independent walk whenever she can; she certainly has a little spirit of secrecy, and independence, and nonsense, about her, which I would advise her to get the better of As a general reflection on Fanny, Sir Thomas thought nothing could be more unjust, though he had been so lately expressing the same sentiments himself, and he tried to turn the conversation: tried repeatedly before he could succeed; for MrsNorris had not discernment enough to perceive, either now, or at any other time, to what degree he thought well of his niece, or how very far he was from wishing to have his own children?s merits set off by the depreciation of hersShe was talking at Fanny, and resenting this private walk half through the dinner It was over, however, at last; and the evening set in with more composure to Fanny, and more cheerfulness of spirits than she could have hoped for after so stormy a morning; but she trusted, in the first place, that she had done right: that her judgment had not misled her For the purity of her intentions she could answer; and she was willing to hope, secondly, that her uncle?s displeasure was abating, and would abate farther as he considered the matter with more impartiality, and felt, as a good man must feel, how wretched, and how unpardonable, how hopeless, and how wicked 925 tiffany's necklace it was to marry without affection When the meeting with which she was threatened for the morrow was past, she could not but flatter herself that the subject would be finally concluded, and MrCrawford once gone from Mansfield, that everything would soon be as if no such subject had existedShe would not, could not believe, that MrCrawford?s affection for her could distress him long; his mind was not of that sortLondon would soon bring its cureIn London he would soon learn to wonder at his infatuation, and be thankful for the right reason in her which 281 Jane Austen had saved him from its evil consequences While Fanny?s mind was engaged in these sort of hopes, her uncle was, soon after tea, called out of the room; an occurrence too common to strike her, and she thought nothing of it till the butler reappeared ten minutes afterwards, and advancing decidedly towards herself, said, ?Sir Thomas wishes to speak with you, ma?am, in his own room Then it occurred to her what might be going on; a suspicion rushed over her mind which drove the colour from her cheeks; but instantly rising, she was preparing to obey, when Mrs Norris called out, ?Stay, stay, Fanny! what are you about? where are you going? don?t be in such a hurryDepend upon it, it is not you who are wanted; depend upon it, it is me? (looking at the butler); ?but you are so very eager to put yourself forwardWhat should Sir Thomas want you for? It is me, Baddeley, you mean; I am coming this omega quartz mom