yanti877wan

@@@@@Almost as much as I cared for herI hadn't realized that we loved each other Even if Jared had never asked me for this, even if Jared did not exist? Once this path had occurred to me, I would have had to proceed down itI loved her that much No wonder the success rate for resistant hosts was so low here on EarthOnce we learned to love our human host, what hope did we souls have? We could not exist at the expense of one we lovedA soul could not live that way I rolled myself over and, in the starlight, I looked at my body My hands were dirty and scratched, but under the surface blemishes, they were beautifulThe skin was a pretty sun-browned color; even bleached in the pale light, it was prettyThe nails were chewed short but still healthy and smooth, with little half moons of white at the basesI fluttered my fingers, watching the muscles pull the bones in graceful patternsI let them dance above me, where they became black fluid shapes against the stars I ran them through my hairIt was almost to my shoulders nowAfter a few weeks of shampoo in hotel showers and Health vitamins, it was glossy and soft again I stretched my arms out as far as they would go, tugging against the tendons until some of my joints crackedThey could pull me up a mountainside, they could carry a heavy load, they could plow a fieldBut they were also softThey could hold a child, they could comfort a friend, they could love? but that was not for me I took a deep breath, and tears welled out of the corners of my eyes and rolled down my temples into my hair I tensed the muscles in my legs, felt their ready strength and speedI wanted to run, to have an open field that I could race across just to see how fast I could goI wanted to do this barefoot, so I could feel the earth beneath my feetI wanted to feel the wind fly through my h