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a little queer, so I turned it off as well as I could, by whispering to
him, ?We shall have an excellent Agatha; there is something so maternal
in her manner, so completely maternal in her voice and countenance
Was not that well done of me? He brightened up directly
Now for my soliloquy
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She began, and Fanny joined in with all the modest feeling which
the idea of representing Edmund was so strongly calculated to inspire;
but with looks and voice so truly feminine as to be no very
good picture of a manWith such an Anhalt, however, Miss Crawford
had courage enough; and they had got through half the scene, when
a tap at the door brought a pause, and the entrance of Edmund, the
next moment, suspended it all
Surprise, consciousness, and pleasure appeared in each of the
three on this unexpected meeting; and as Edmund was come on
the very same business that had brought Miss Crawford, consciousness
and pleasure were likely to be more than momentary in them
He too had his book, and was seeking Fanny, to ask her to rehearse
with him, and help him to prepare for the evening, omega seamaster midsize without
knowing Miss Crawford to be in the house; and great was the joy
and animation of being thus thrown together, of comparing
schemes, and sympathising in praise of Fanny?s kind offices
She could not equal them in their warmthHer spirits sank under
the glow of theirs, and she felt herself becoming too nearly nothing
to both to have any comfort in having been sought by eitherThey
must now rehearse togetherEdmund proposed, urged, entreated
it, till the lady, not very unwilling at first, could refuse no longer,
and Fanny was wanted only to prompt and observe themShe was
invested, indeed, with the office of judge and critic, and earnestly
desired to exercise it and tell them all their faults; but from doing so
every feeling within her shrank?she could not, would not, dared
not attempt it: had she been otherwise qualified for criticism, her
conscience must have restrained her from venturing at disapprobation
She believed herself to feel too much of it in the aggregate for
honesty or safety in particularsTo prompt them must be enough
for her; and it was sometimes more than enough; for she could not
always pay attention to the bookIn watching them she louis vuitton brown canvas handbag forgot herself;
and, agitated by the increasing spirit of Edmund?s manner, had
once closed the page and turned away exactly as he wanted helpIt
was imputed to very reasonable weariness, and she was thanked and
pitied; but she deserved their pity more than she hoped they would
ever surmiseAt last the scene was over, and Fanny forced herself to
add her praise to the compliments each was giving the other; and
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when again alone and able to recall the whole, she was inclined to
believe their performance would, indeed, have such nature and feeling
in it as must ensure their credit, and make it a very suffering
exhibition to herselfWhatever might be its effect, however, she
must stand the brunt of it again that very day
The first regular rehearsal of the three first acts was certainly to
take place in the evening: MrsGrant and the Crawfords were engaged
to return for that purpose as soon as they could after dinner;
and every one concerned was looking forward with eagernessThere
seemed a general diffusion of cheerfulness on the occasionTom
was enjoying such an advance towards the end; Edmund was in
spirits from the morning?s swiss replica rolex watch rehearsal, and little vexations seemed everywhere
smoothed awayAll were alert and impatient; the ladies
moved soon, the gentlemen soon followed them, and with the exception
of Lady Bertram, MrsNorris, and Julia, everybody was in
the theatre at an early hour; and having lighted it up as well as its
unfinished state admitted, were waiting only the arrival of MrsGrant
and the Crawfords to begin
They did not wait long for the Crawfords, but there was no MrsGrant, professing an indisposition,
for which he had little credit with his fair sister-in-law, could not
spare his wifeGrant is ill,? said she, with mock solemnity?He has been ill
ever since he did not eat any of the pheasant todayHe fancied it
tough, sent away his plate, and has been suffering ever since?
Here was disappointment! MrsGrant?s non-attendance was sad
indeedHer pleasant manners and cheerful conformity made her
always valuable amongst them; but now she was absolutely necessary
They could not act, they could not rehearse with any satisfaction
without herThe comfort of the whole evening was destroyed
What was to be done? Tom, as Cottager, was in despairAfter a
pause of perplexity, some miu miu charm leather bag eyes began to be turned towards Fanny,
and a voice or two to say, ?If Miss Price would be so good as to read
the part She was immediately surrounded by supplications; everybody
asked it; even Edmund said, ?Do, Fanny, if it is not very disagreeable
to you
But Fanny still hung backShe could not endure the idea of it
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Why was not Miss Crawford to be applied to as well? Or why had
not she rather gone to her own room, as she had felt to be safest,
instead of attending the rehearsal at all? She had known it would
irritate and distress her; she had known it her duty to keep away
She was properly punished
?You have only to read the part,? said Henry Crawford, with renewed
entreaty
?And I do believe she can say every word of it,? added Maria, ?for
she could put MrsGrant right the other day in twenty placesFanny,
I am sure you know the part
Fanny could not say she did not; and as they all persevered, as
Edmund repeated his wish, and with a look of even fond dependence
on her good-nature, she must yieldShe would do her best
Everybody was satisfied; and she was left to the tremors of a most
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