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@@@@@I wish you could have felt the way I feel now, I wish you could have been happyWhat was it Grandfather had said? That his daughter Ellen had married Gerald O 'Hara to run away from a disappointment in loveWas that why she was never happy? Was she pining over someone she couldn't have the way I pined over Ashley? The way I pine now over Rhett when I can't help it What a waste! What a horrible, senseless wasteWhen happiness was so wonderful, how could anyone cling to a love that made them unhappy? Scarlett vowed that she wouldn't do itShe knew what it was to be happy, and she would not ruin itShe caught her sleeping baby up in her arms and hugged herCat woke and waved her helpless hands in protest"Oh, Kitty Cat, I'm sorryI just had to hug you some They were all wrong! The idea was so explosive that it woke Scarlett from a sound sleepThey were wrong! All of them-the people who cut me dead in Atlanta, Aunt Eulalie and Aunt Pauline, and just about everybody in CharlestonThey wanted me to be just like them, and because I'm not, they disapproved of me, made me feel like there was something terribly wrong with me, made me think I was a bad person, that I deserved to be looked down on was as terrible as all thatWhat they punished me for was that I wasn't minding their rulesI worked harder than any field hand-at making money, and caring about money isn't ladylikeNever mind that I was keeping Tara going and holding the aunts' heads above water and supporting Ashley and his family and paying for almost every piece of food on the table at Aunt Pitty's plus keeping the roof fixed and the coal bin filledThey all thought I shouldn't have dirtied my hands with the ledgers from the store or put on a smile when I sold lumber to the YankeesThere were plenty enough things I did that I shouldn't have done, but working for money wasn't one of them, and that's what they blamed me for mostNo, that's not quite itThey blamed me for being successful at it That and pulling Ashley back from breaking his neck flinging himself into the grave after MellyIf it had been the other way around, and I'd saved her at Ashley's burial, it would have been all right Hypocrites! What gives people whose whole life is a lie the right to judge me? What's wrong with working as hard as you can, and then more besides? Why is it so terrible to push in and stop disaster from happening to anyone, especially a friend? They were wrongHere in Ballyhara I worked as hard as I could, and I was admired for it