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Truth is so infinite, so great, that no partial statement can contain it; the opposite has to be included immediately. The whole will always be contradictory, only the part can be consistent -- because the whole has to consider the opposite also. The opposite is there. It exists. Philosophers can be consistent because their understanding is partial. They can be neat and clean, they can afford to be logical. Immediately the whole thing becomes untrue. The opposite has to be involved, the opposite has to be absorbed. If you have a fear, a distrust, then even after surrender you will have to do something, the surrender cannot be complete. If after surrender you have also to do something, then you have to retain yourself, you have to hold back -- surrender cannot be total. And when surrender is not total it is not surrender at all. Surrender can only be total, you cannot surrender in part. You cannot say: I surrender half -- because the half that has been retained will be against the surrender. It can only be retained against it. So surrender can only be total. It is just like a circle, a geometric circle. It cannot be half; you cannot draw a half circle. If you draw it you cannot call it a circle. A circle must be complete. Half, then it is something else, not a circle at all. Surrender can only be total. It is also a circle, a spiritual circle. You surrender from end to end. Nothing is left behind. If you have surrendered, there is no need for anything to be done. Surrender itself is the thing, nothing else is needed. The very phenomenon of surrendering is enough. No further help is needed. Everything will be done by surrender itself. Surrendering means you are no more, surrendering means the ego has been dropped. Surrendering means now the center has been dispersed; you exist but without a center. If there is no center, there is nothing to protect; the walls drop by themselves. If there is no one, your whole structure of defense disappears by and by; it becomes futile. You become an open space. This open space will do everything, this openness will do everything. Tao will pass through you unhindered. Tao can move through you, in and out -- there is nobody to create any barrier. Surrendered, you become open to the divine forces. Everything happens spontaneously after that. The problem is surrendering. After surrendering, there is no problem. Nothing is needed. There is no need! So what to do now? How to say this whole? There is only one way, to contradict consistently. The relationship between a guru and a disciple is a very complex phenomenon. In a way very simple, otherwise very complex. It is simple because the relationship exists only on the part of the disciple. On the part of the master there is no relationship, because the master doesn't exist. He is there no more. He is a nobody. It appears to you that he is. This appearance will persist unless you surrender. Once you surrender, once you become a non-being, suddenly you will see that the master has never been there.

In Osho´s village there was one man, Sunderlal. Osho had been surprised ...sunder means beauty, sunderlal means beautiful diamond; and he was anything other than a beauty. He was not even homely. This Sunderlal was really ugly. To talk to him meant that you had to look this way and that way; to look at him made one feel a little sick -- something went berserk in the stomach. His front two teeth were out, and he had such crossed eyes that to look at him for a little while meant a certain headache -- and he was Sunderlal! He was the son of a rich man, and he was a little nuts too. Osho used to call him Doctor Sunderlal although he was never able to pass matriculation. He failed so many times that the school authorities asked his father to remove him because he brought their average low every year -- and he was not going to pass. How they managed to get him up to matriculation, that is a miracle. But it is understandable, because up to matriculation all examinations are local, so you can bribe the teachers. This was difficult to do in the matriculation examination because it is not local, it is state-wide. So it is very difficult to find out who is setting the papers, who is examining the papers. It is almost impossible; unless you happen to be the education minister or some relative of the education minister, it is very difficult to find out. But Osho started calling him Doctor Sunderlal. He said, "Doctor? But I am not a doctor." Osho said, "Not an ordinary doctor like these physicians: you are an honorary doctor." But he said, "Nobody has given me an honorary doctorate either." Osho said, "I am giving you an honorary doctorate. It does not matter who gives it -- you get the doctorate, that's the point." He said, "That is true, " and by and by Osho convinced him that he was an honorary doctor. He started introducing himself to people as Doctor Sunderlal. One day Osho saw a letterhead with "Doctor Sunderlal, D.Litt., Honorary," printed on it in golden letters, embossed. Osho said, "This is great!" And as time passed by people completely forgot: he was now known as Doctor Sunderlal, D.Litt. Nobody suspected, nobody even enquired who gave him a doctorate, from what university? But the whole town knew him. And because he was an honorary doctorate he inaugurated social gatherings in the school, in the college -- now the town had a college -- and he was the most literary figure. Just then Doctor Sunderlal had become a member of parliament. The new government after Indira's assassination, Rajiv Gandhi chose him. He was rich and certainly respected in the town because he was the only doctor -- an honorary doctor! Now you could not tell him that he is not. He would drag you to the court. Now, for almost fifty years he had been a doctor; that is enough. Nobody had objected, nobody had raised a question. In his election campaign his name was Doctor Sunderlal, D.Litt. -- "Vote for Doctor Sunderlal, D.Litt." Perhaps -- and he was a little nuts -- he believed that he is. Osho knew that even he could not persuade him that "this doctorate I gave to you." He would laugh and say, "What are you saying? I have been a doctor for thirty years. You were just a little kid when I became a doctor!" He would not agree so easily to drop his doctorate. But even if you get a doctorate from a university, what does it mean? There is not much difference.

The Bible is full of accounts of Israel dealing with hybrids. Genesis 6:4 says, 'There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that.' They are also referred to as Rephaim, Annunaki (sons of Annuk), Emim, Zamzummim, 'also after that" is referring to the Nephilim who were again found in the land of Canaan Numbers: 13:33, 'And there we saw giants, the sons of Annak, which come of the giants: and we were in our own sight as grasshoppers, so we were in their sight.' The word Nephilim means 'violent' 'causing to fall' 'wonder' 'prodigies' or 'monsters' When fallen angels shape-shift into a human form, they can have intercourse but not without some aberrant genetic changes. The union of these beasts with humans produced children that were different in many ways. The first apparent difference was that they developed giantism. They were giants or Nephilim. Og, the King of Bashan, had a bed that was 13 to 15 feet long; and Goliath was 6 cubits tall (9 feet). The second aberration was that they had six fingers and six toes.

"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy."

W. Shakespeare

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the jabberwock, my son.
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the jubjub bird, and shun

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought --
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And as in uffish thought he stood,
The jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And has thou slain the jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

Alice Through The Looking Glass

Sartre had been talking, arguing, that nothing is meaningful, that the whole life is meaningless. This had become his meaning -- to argue for it, to fight for it. That was where he had missed the point. A little deeper and the rock bottom was close by. He would have been thrown back towards a deep yes.

Out of no, yes is born. If out of no, yes is not born, then something has gone wrong. It has to be so. Out of the night the morning is born. If the morning is not born then something has gone wrong. Maybe the morning is there but the man has made it a point not to open his eyes. He has become addicted to darkness, or the man has gone blind, or the man has lived in darkness so long that light dazzles him and blinds him.

One step more in another life and Sartre will become a real man of Zen. He will be able to say yes. Out of no, but out of an authentic no.

Have you watched sometimes the phenomenon of false pregnancy? A woman believes that she is pregnant, and just by the belief, just by the idea, she becomes autohypnotized that she is pregnant. She starts feeling her belly is growing -- and the belly really starts growing. Maybe there is nothing but air. And every month the belly goes on getting bigger and bigger and bigger. Just her mind helping the belly to accumulate air, just the very idea. And there is nothing -- no pregnancy, no child inside. This is false pregnancy; there is not going to be any birth.

When somebody says no without earning it, without having lived for it.... For example, in Russia no had become the official philosophy. Everybody was a communist and everybody was an atheist. The no was bogus -- as bogus as the yes of Indians. It was a false pregnancy. It was the official religion; it was government propagated. In every school and college and university, the no was being worshipped. Atheism had become the religion; everybody was taught about it. The pregnancy was going to be false, conditioned by others; just as in a religious home -- Christian, Hindu, Mohammedan -- you are born and then you are taught something and by and by you start believing.

A small child seeing his father praying starts praying because children are imitative. The father going to the church... the child goes to the church. Seeing that everybody believes, he also starts pretending. Now a false pregnancy is born. The belly will go on growing and no child will come out of it, no life will be born out of it. Only, the person will become ugly because of the belly.

The yes can be false, the no can be false; then nothing comes out of it. A tree is known by the fruit, and a cause is known by the effect. Whether you are authentic or not will be known by your rebirth.