We said goodbye to Remix today. The girls didn't want to be in the house, so we went shopping. Only, the thing is, I was exhausted and sad and emotional and wanted nothing to do with shopping. I spent 5 minutes helping to find Michelle a dress for her Formal or Graduation that are coming up, then after that I just found a chair everywhere we went and sat down. I couldn't even think long enough to direct my feet in a way that didn't lead into shelves or walls or other people. I'm just so. fucking. sad. Having to put Remix to sleep was hard, is still hard, but it's not the only thing making me feel destroyed inside. Michelle let loose some news on us, that I don't feel right sharing even in my own journal, but let's just say that it's unexpected and heartbreaking and scary.The last 24 hours has been too...too hard, too upsetting, too world-shattering, too...much.